Cure for Self Pity

Several weeks ago, on a return trip from a doctors appointment in Dallas, I began to reflect on the condition of my health and started to have myself a “One Man Pity Party”. I’m sure no one else has had an experience like that, but I did. You see, early in 2017 I developed this chronic cough and gotten to the point it was hard for me to walk out the front door without being out of breath. I wasn’t able to do much at all and nothing that I had to use my voice. Finally in late 2017 I was diagnosed with Idiopathic Pulmonary Fibrosis. To make a long story short, I went on Oxygen 24/7 and was very limited in what I could do, which is not much. So, as I’m riding along reflecting on my condition, I begin to ask God-as the old song says, “Why Me Lord”? It is not a sin to God questions but He doesn’t have to answer if He chooses not to-after all-He is God! Now God has never spoken audibly but it seemed He did that day. He began to remind me of all the nice people who had become a part of my life during this time that I never would have met had it not been for my illness. I was reminded it’s not all about me but it’s all about Him. I repented and began to turn my attention where it should have been in the first place-to Him, and I was reminded what of John the Baptist declared when he said, “He must increase, but I must decrease” John 3:30.

Read Psalms 23 and Psalms 121.

-Bill Williams, Senior Vice President